hahahaha

gelak la puas-puas..
gelak dan terus gelak :)

benci tapi rindu

benci tapi rindu by Diana Nasution

Bukan hanya sekedar penghibur
Diriku ini sayang
Bukan pula sekedar pelepas
Rindumu oh sayang
Sakit hatiku
Kau buat begini

Kau datang dan pergi
Sesuka hatimu
Oh... kejamnya dikau
Teganya dikau padaku

Kau pergi dan datang
Sesuka hatimu
Oh... sakitnya hati
Bencinya hati padamu

Sakitnya hati ini
Namun aku rindu
Bencinya hati ini
Tapi aku rindu

ohh bahagia

haha syok gile..
baru lepas call rumah..
and tak sangka si gedik danish yang pick up my call..
biasenye die jual mahal..
dengar suara aku je..
sure nak berlagak..

tapi tadi..
macam mimpi..
die siap cakap "aunty balik la rumah tok"
"pastu malam aunty balik la rumah danish"
"danish sayang aunty"
"danish sayang sume sume"
hahaha syoknye dengar..
aku ajak die pegi kfc kat tc (teluk cempedak)..
then die jawab "nak nak..nanti kite rempit eh"
tapi bile da lame cakap, die berlagak balik..
tapi berlagak gedik..
"aunty dah eh"
"aunty wat la homework"
"da malam ni, danish nak buka puasa"
aduiii terguling2 aku..
ade ke patut die suruh aku buat homework..
yang tak bley blah, die nak bukak puasa..
heshhh pandai kelentong dah..

dari tadi aku asik tersenyum je..
rase nak terbang balik kuantan je..
hihihihihihi..

klaka tapi memalukan

morning!

pagi ni nak bergosip..da macam drama plak terjerit-jerit dalam tren..klaka, but memalukan..

as usual, naik tren selalu dengar lagu..kuat jugakla sampai announce yang "next station dang wangi..next station dang wangi" pun aku tak dengar..tak sure kat station mane tadi..maybe kat masjid jamek..tiba2 dengar orang jerit-jerit..aku terus slow kan volume..nak tarik terus earphone nampak sangat busy body hihihih..mula2 gal chinese ni marah2..gal ke? around 30 kot umur die..then malay gal ni plak balas balik.." kalau aku tak tolak camne aku nak masuk"..pong pang pong pang pong pang..then kebetulan adela 2-3 orang polis dalam tren tu..they all just berkerumun kat situ..chinese tu da stop..but yang malay ni membebel-bebel lagi..nak tarik rambut la..ishhh malu tul aku tengok..then time nak turun, yang malay tuh siap sound ".......SETAN!" aku tak dengar 1st word..but yang setan tu memang dengar..adui malu malu malu..

aku rasa malay gal tu malu sebab kene tengking at 1st..that's y die nak balas kaw2..but for me la kan, no manner la babe..buat malu je..depan public plak tu kan..so moral of the story, if nak maki2 pun, jeling kiri kanan dulu..behave skit..kite perempuan kan..plus, yang chinese tu pun da stop, so y not diam je kan..ni tak, non stop bebel..haeshhhh..

p/s: kak, sorry ye famouskan akak kat blog saya :p mintak maaf banyak2.. :)

Agnes Monica - Teruskanlah

pernahkah kau bicara tapi tak didengar
tak dianggap sama sekali
pernahkah kau tak salah tapi disalahkan
tak diberi kesempatan

reff:
kuhidup dengan siapa ku tak tahu kau siapa
kau kekasih ku tapi orang lain bagiku
kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja
teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu

kau tak butuh diriku aku patung bagimu
cinta bukan kebutuhanmu

back to reff

kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja
teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu

be strong!

12.31 a.m..my mom jus called..remind me on something..(mak, dun worry k..i'll be fine..thanx for caring me..miss youuuu!) as usual..my weekend sangat memboringkan..hampir2 nak balik kuantan..da call my bro mintak izin..but he asked me to stay laaa, teman my sis in law and niece..

hidup makin teruk..rase macam nak lari..but if lari, bukan boleh settle prob pun..stay pun same jugak..ntahlaa..betul2 stuck this time..

i know what i want..i have my own target..but aku confused..betul ke ape yang aku buat? tak selfish ke aku? tak kejam ke aku? aku da try..tapi aku still nampak loser..maybe ppls around tak nampak my effort..aku tak salah kan siapa2..sebab aku sendiri banyak kelemahan..tapi kalau orang da anggap aku loser, aku buat ape pun still nampak teruk kan..aku rasa aku da cuba yang terbaik, tapi terpulang pada orang nak menilai..ape yang kita rasa takkan sama..kepuasan, kehendak..semuanya berbeza..

hmm wateva it is, hopefully time will heal..aku harap hari esok lagi baik dari hari ni..

enjoy this video..

Hard To Say I'm Sorry

Everybody needs a little time away
I've heard her say
From each other

Even lovers need a holiday oooh
Far away from each other

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay
And after all that you've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you, baby

And after all thats been said and done
You're just the part of me I can't let go

ooooh bup bup bup bup

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Not for a day
From your body
Wouldn't want to be swept away awaaaaaaaay
Far away from the one that I love

Hold me now
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to know
Hold me now
I really want to tell you I'm sorry
I could never let you go

And after all that we've been through
I will make it up to you
I promise you

And after all that's been said and done
You're just a part of me I can't let go

I can't let go.

Banta Singh's letter toBill Gates

Dear Mr. Bill Gates,

We have bought a computer for our home and we have found some problems, which I want to bring to your notice.

1. There is a button 'Start' but there is no 'Stop' button. We request you to check this.

2. One doubt is whether any 'Re-scooter' is available in system? I find only 'Re-cycle', but I own a scooter at my home.

3. There is 'Find' button but it is not working properly. My wife lost the door key and we tried a lot trace the key with this 'find' button, but was unable to trace. Please rectify this problem.

4. My child learnt 'Microsoft Word' now he wants to learn 'Microsoft sentence', so when you will provide that?

5. I bought computer, CPU, mouse and keyboard, but there is only one icon which shows 'My Computer': when you will provide the remaining items?

6.. It is surprising that windows says 'MY Pictures' but there is not even a single photo of mine. So when will you keep my photo in that.

7. There is 'MICROSOFT OFFICE' what about 'MICROSOFT HOME' since I use the PC at home only.


8. You provided 'My Recent Documents'. When you will provide 'My Past Documents'?

9. You provide 'My Network Places'. For God sake please do not provide 'My Secret Places'. I do not want to let my wife know where I go after my office hours.

10. After connecting to internet we planned to open e-mail account and whenever we fill the form in Hotmail in the password column, only ****** appears, but in the rest of the fields whatever we typed appears, but we face this problem only in password field. We checked with hardware vendor Santa Singh and he said that there is no problem in keyboard. Because of this we open the e-mail account with password *****. I request you to check this as we ourselves do not know what the password is.

11. Every night I am not sleeping as I have to protect my 'mouse' from CAT, So I suggest u to provide one DOG to kill that cat.

12. Please confirm when u are going to give me money for winning 'HEARTS' (playing cards in games) and when are u coming to my home to collect ur money.

13. We are unable to enter anything after we click the 'shut down' button.

Regards,
Banta

P.S.
Last one to Mr. Bill Gates: Sir, how is it that your name is GATES but you are
selling WINDOWS?

p/s: thanx HSBB Group :)

A Story Worth Sharing

A Story Worth Sharing : The Irreplaceable Void

4 years ago, an accident took my beloved away and very often I wonder, how does my wife, who is now in the heavenly realm, feel right now? She must be feeling extremely sad for leaving a husband who is incapable to taking care of the house and the kid. 'cos that is the exact feeling that I have, as I feel that I have failed to provide for the physical and emotional needs of my child, and failed to be the dad and mum for my child.

There was one particular day, when I had an emergency at work. Hence, I had to leave home whilst my child was still sleeping. So thinking that there was still rice leftovers, I hastily cooked an egg and left after informing my sleepy child.

With the double roles, I am often exhausted at work as well as when I am home. So after a long day, I came home, totally drained of all energy. So with just a brief hug and kiss for my child, I went straight into the room, skipping dinner. However, when I jumped into my bed with intention of just having a well-deserved sleep, all i heard and felt was broken porcelain and warm liquid! I flipped open my blanket, and there lies the source of the 'problem'... a broken bowl with instant noodles and a mess on the bedsheet and blanket!

Boy, was I mad! I was so furious that I took a clothes hanger, charged straight at my child who was happily playing with his toy, and give him a good spanking! He merely cried but not asking for mercy, except a short explanation:

"Dad, I was hungry and there wasn't anymore leftover rice. But you were not back yet, hence I wanted to cook some instant noodles. But I remembered you reminding me not to touch or use the gas stove without any adults around, hence I turned on the shower and used the hot water from the bathroom to cook the noodles. One is for you and the other is for me. However, I was afraid that the noodles will turn cold, so I hid it under the blanket to keep it warm till you return. But I forgot to remind you 'cos I was playing with my toys...I am sorry Dad..."

At that moment, tears were starting to run down my cheeks...but I didn't want my son to see his dad crying so I dashed into the bathroom and cried with the shower head on to mask my cries. After that episode, I went towards my son to give him a tight hug and applied medication on him, while coaxing him to sleep. Then, it was time to clear up the mess on the bed. When everything was done and well past midnight, I passed my son's room, and saw that he was still crying, not from the pain on his little buttock, but from looking at the photograph of his beloved mummy.

A year has passed since the episode, I have tried, in this period, to focus on giving him both the love of his dad and mum, and to attend to most of his needs. And soon, he is turning seven, and will be graduating from kindergarten. Fortunately, the incident did not leave a lasting impression on his childhood memories and he is still happily growing up.

However, not so long ago, I hit my boy again, with much regret. This time, his kindergarten teacher called, informing me of my son's absence from school. I took off early from work and went home, expecting him to explain. But he wasn't to be found, so I went around our house, calling out his name and eventually found him outside a stationery shop, happily playing computer games. I was fuming, brought him home and whack the hell out of him. He did not retaliate, except to say, 'I am sorry, Dad'. But after much probing, I realized that it was a 'Talent Show' organized by his school and the invite is for every student's mummy. And that was the reason for his absence as he has no mummy.....

Few days after the caning, my son came home to tell me, the kindergarten has recently taught him how to read and write. Since then, he has kept to himself and stayed in his room to practise his writing, which I am sure, would make my wife proud, if she was still around. 'cos he makes me proud too!

Time passes by very quickly, and soon another year has passed. It's winter, and its Christmas time. Everywhere the christmas spirit is in every passer-by...Christmas carols and frantic shoppers....but alas, my son got into another trouble. When I was about to knock off from the day's work, the post office called. Due to the peak season, the post master was also on an edgy mood. He called to tell me that my son has attempted to post several letters with no addressee. Although I did make a promise never to hit my son again, I couldn't help but to hit him as I feel that this child of mine is really beyond control. Once again, as before, he apologized, "I'm sorry, Dad" and no additional reason to explain. I pushed him towards a corner, went to the post office to collect the letters with no addressee and came home, and angrily questioned my son on his prank, during this time of the year.

His answer, amidst his sobbing, was : The letters were for Mummy.

My eyes grew teary, but I tried to control my emotions and continued to ask him: "But why did u post so many letters, at one time?" My son's reply was: " I have been writing to mummy for a long time, but each time I reach out for the post box, it was too high for me, hence I was not able to post the letters. But recently, when I went back to the postbox, I could reach it and I sent it all at once..."

After hearing this, I was lost. Lost at not knowing what to do, what to say....

I told my son, " Son, mummy is in the heavenly kingdom, so in future, if you have anything to tell her, just burn the letter and it will reach mummy. My son, on hearing this, was much pacified and calm, and soon after, he was sleeping soundly. On promising that I will burn the letters on his behalf, I brought the letters outside, but couldnt help opening the letter before they turn to ash.

And one of the letters broke my heart....

Dear Mummy,

I miss you so much! Today, there was a 'Talent Show' in school, and the school invited all mothers for the show. But you are not around, so I did not want to participate as well. I did not tell Dad about it as I was afraid that Dad would start to cry and miss you all over again. Dad went around looking for me, but in order to hide my sadness, I sat in front of the computer and started playing games at one of the shops. Dad was furious, and he couldnt help it but scolded and hit me, but I did not tell him the real reason. Mummy, everyday I see Dad missing you and whenever he think of you, he is so sad and often hide and cry in his room. I think we both miss you very very much. Too much for our own good I think. But Mummy, I am starting to forget your face. Can you please appear in my dreams so that I can see your face and remember you? I heard that if you fall asleep with the photograph of the person whom you miss, you will see the person in your dreams. But mummy, why havent you appear?

After reading the letter, I cant stop sobbing. 'cos I can never replace the irreplaceable gap left behind by my wife....

For the females with children :
Don't do so much overtime. If you cannot finish the work, it must be some kind of problems within the company, and it is not your sole problem. Feedback to your boss. Endless overtime may not necessary be the answer to the problem. Take care of your health so that you can treasure and take care of your little precious.

For the married men :
Drink less, smoke less, cos nothing can replace your good health, not even business nor clients.
Try thinking this way, are you able to work till your clients are totally dependent on you? or your boss is totally dependent on you? In this society, no one is indispensable.
Take care of your health, so that you can take care of your little precious and your loved ones.

For those singles out there :
Beauty lies in loving yourself first.
With confidence and loving yourself, you will see the beauty in other things around you. You will be able to work better and happier. Don't let your health be affected by your work or your boss, so nothing matters more than your well being.

alone

alone and silent..
let it be..
let it be..
and let it be..
time will heal..
im gonna be okay..
im gonna be fine..
and i'll go through my life with smile..

:)


p/s: u putting a gap..then there's a gap..